@szilvia I'm so sorry, that's such a difficult thing to hear, but just remember she's your child, you know her better than anyone - you make the decisions, and you're allowed to tell any doctor you won't make any decisions without hearing the opinion from more than one doctor, you're also allowed to ask to not hear from that doctor anymore.
My son has a trach, he's 4 now... he was born at 25 weeks and spent 14 months in NICU/PICU before ever coming home, and we were told similar things probably somewhere around 10 weeks in because he has an extremely rare syndrome and they just weren't sure how things would turn out for him. So first of all - trach doesn't mean things can't work out. Our son is cute and fun, he's very delayed, but definitely communicates in his own way, walks, makes sounds, loves music and game shows, laughs all the time. Not saying any of that to get your hopes up, because obviously every situation is different, but just saying it's a guessing game. And I do really feel like holding our son every day was what turned things around. The nurses were nervous to get him out of the bed since he was intubated, but his doctor finally ordered it after like 6 weeks of touch-and-go, and he was like "listen, I don't know how things are going to turn out, but whether he makes it or not, you deserve to be able to cuddle with your son; it's not going to hurt him, and there's a very real possibility it could help." And we think it did... he clearly loved it.
My best advice to you is to see if your hospital has a palliative care team; in NICU, palliative care is more for the parents. At most hospitals, it's a team of doctors and nurse practitioners who practice from the viewpoint of ensuring the patient is comfortable, and helping parents make very difficult decisions like "is this very difficult treatment or procedure going to help in the long run, or is it just going to delay the inevitable?" They can also just be wonderful emotional support after a bad day has happened. My son had an incredibly difficult struggle for over a year, many, MANY of his 413 days there involved resuscitation, so it was nice to have these people saying "Yeah, he was resuscitated, but it doesn't mean he's actively dying, it just means he needs to get stronger to get past these episodes." Anyway, they can also help you wade through the varying information you receive from neonatologists.
Also... and this is a big one a lot of people don't realize, at most hospitals with a NICU (especially Children's Hospitals), you're allowed to ask for care team meetings. This usually involves going to a conference room with multiple doctors who have been caring for your child, any fellows/interns who have seen them, and the palliative team if you've been meeting with them. This is a really good way to get a quick consensus from multiple doctors at once about prognosis and a game plan going forward. You can ask for them for any reason... we didn't realize we could do that until it was getting close to time to transfer our son back to our hometown (he was 3 hours from home, so we just lived in Ronald McDonald House for 5 months), but it seems like this would be a good time to do it too, so you can get an honest feel for the situation, because sometimes it can be truly difficult to judge whether the doctors are hopeful or not.
And I want to reiterate that you know your child better than anyone; don't let any new doctor think they know better than you just because they went to med school. Yes, obviously you need them, but for instance... toward the end of our son's stay, they almost changed their minds about letting him come home because he was having episodes at night. His dad and I knew he was having episodes at night because we didn't stay with him at night, so no one was there to quickly calm him down if he'd get upset; he'd have tracheomalacia episodes when he got upset where his trachea would close and he'd brady/desat (the source of the previously mentioned resuscitation). I was like ummm hello have you not noticed that doesn't happen during the day when we're here?? He'd be safer at home, because he'd have someone with him 24/7 (private duty nursing... covered by medicaid). It took some convincing, but they realized I was right. The doctor warned me "Listen, it's not a matter of if but when he comes back to the hospital, because he will be back here in the PICU. I don't want to scare you, it's just the way these things go, he's a very sick kid." Well he's 4 and has never been back... and it's because I was right, that he needed to be home where he felt comfortable, had mom and dad with him most of the time, and always someone there to calm him down when he was at his most fragile. We saw him through some absolutely insane struggles in the NICU, but we also always knew that if he made it through all those traumatic episodes, he was going to be one hell of a hearty little fighter, and he has proved us absolutely right.
Anyway, sorry for the rambling... I travelled all day and am deliriously tired. lol. I saw you say you'll have a different doctor tomorrow; that's a relief. I would definitely take that type of advice with a grain of salt until you get to talk to another doctor.
If you have any questions about trach life, I'm happy to answer; I've been a trach mom since March 2020. Feel free to DM me. Sending you lots of love and hope for more favorable answers tomorrow.