Would you ever forgive your SIL? I was walking with her and holding her 3 y.o. In the dark stupidly bc niece wouldn’t put on shoes and fell over a 2” dip in the sidewalk.. I luckily broke the fall and skinned my knees, face, and hands up raw. Niece had no pain she said but was “scared” I feel horrible.. she had one tiny scrape on her ankle but was jumping up and down laughing after.
I can’t stop thinking about how much worse it could’ve been. I don’t know if I’ll ever forgive myself for being so stupid. I am getting married next month and want kids so badly, but I feel so bad for endangering her even though it was an accident. I feel I was dangerously careless and clumsy.
Are these incidents, thoughts, feelings normal? Does it ever get easier?
SIL was very kind. Did not freak out on me and tried to make me feel better saying niece cut herself up worse falling this week but I still hate myself rn.
Edit to Add: I clearly found the most loving/amazing side of Reddit and you are all phenomenal parents who I wish I had had. Seriously wonder how much easier life would’ve been if I had heard your words of patience and forgiveness growing up.
I can’t stop thinking about how much worse it could’ve been. I don’t know if I’ll ever forgive myself for being so stupid. I am getting married next month and want kids so badly, but I feel so bad for endangering her even though it was an accident. I feel I was dangerously careless and clumsy.
Are these incidents, thoughts, feelings normal? Does it ever get easier?
SIL was very kind. Did not freak out on me and tried to make me feel better saying niece cut herself up worse falling this week but I still hate myself rn.
Edit to Add: I clearly found the most loving/amazing side of Reddit and you are all phenomenal parents who I wish I had had. Seriously wonder how much easier life would’ve been if I had heard your words of patience and forgiveness growing up.