@madscribbler I also don’t have a mom nor family. I’m 3.5 years into my parenting journey with another due in a few weeks. Here are some thoughts:
1.) Many new parents, especially those who don’t have family or had a rough upbringing, have the drive and desire to do
everything right. You might find yourself going crazy trying to do “right” by your child. My advice is to be kind and easy on yourself. Each stage of parenting will bring up new wounds that you may have not known were there. It also may make you hold your partner up to impossible standards because you are so focused on doing things differently than maybe what you experienced.
There is a concept of “The Good Enough Parent” or originally “The Good Enough Mother” I believe it was DW Winnicot who coined the term.
Also reading the books “Hunt, Gather, Parent”, “Free to Learn” and “Oh Crap! I Have a Toddler”, gave my permission to let go a little and just enjoy my kid. The parenting realm is very focused on “optimal” everything at the moment and it’s easy to get caught up.
That’s all to say, be kind to yourself. Give yourself grace. Not everyday will be ideal and optimal in terms of your parenting choices. Your baby will be ok and will love you.
2.) You don’t need to constantly entertain newborns and babies. The world around them is stimulating and exciting enough. Sometimes laying a blanket near a window (without direct sunlight) is enough. Or a blanket on a lawn in the shade in the park or backyard. A brisk walk. Narrating what you’re doing. Simplicity is best for everyone. You don’t need all the gadgets.
3.) the must haves for me were the ergo baby newborn carrier (much easier than a wrap) and the baby Bjorn bouncer.