Please, I am desperate to talk to any one who might have insight as to what healing might look like. Even if you only can relate to a few things, I just want to know about your experience!
I gave birth 14 months ago.
It was a traumatic birth, that lasted 48 hours and ended in a c section. I was diagnosed with PPD and then later PTSD. My husband and I had to sell our home and move in with my parents because I was unable to care for myself or son. I sustained numerous injuries to myself, requiring 3 surgeries (one surgery was a combo surgery with 2 procedures). I tore both labrums in my hips and had hip dysplasia so both my hips needed to be partially reconstructed. I had 2 hernias repaired, and additional abdominal surgery to remove endometriosis adhesions that the c section caused to spread (the endo adhered my colon to various things).
I am still needing to use a wheelchair if I leave the house. I cannot walk up a flight of stairs and sleep in a hospital bed. My mom cares for my son full time. Ive had to go on disability. I’m an OT by trade.
My most recent hip surgery took place almost 2 months ago. I have a fairly large diastasis recti which causes significant back pain when I stand. I have a standing tolerance of about 5-8 minutes before it feels like my back and hips are going to give out on me. I can’t tolerate doing any house work and struggle to bath and dress myself. I look like I’m 7 months pregnant, my abdomen is so rounded and distended. My stomach has incredible amounts of adhesions so much so that it restricts me from extending my back. It’s also so sensitive still from my c section (and 2 other abdominal surgeries) that I cannot tolerate clothing against any portion of my stomach below my belly button line. I still have a pubic bone condition called osteitis pubis along with hyertonia of my pelvic floor muscles.
Prior to pregnancy, I worked full time (40+ hours/week) and worked out 6 days/week. I was incredibly active. I used to be a size 4. I haven’t lost a single pound since pregnancy. I don’t know what to do about this body I’m forced to live in now. I don’t even recognize myself. I’m teetering on the verge of being obese because I gained 40+ pounds during pregnancy and I haven’t been able to do anything to lose the weight. I’m also still breastfeeding which doesn’t help me being hungry all the time.
I’ve been in PT for my hips for 5 months and start pelvic floor PT soon. I see a therapist for my PTSD. I am desperate for any advice or anyone who has any experience with what I’ve mentioned. I am desperate to live my life again and I want to be able to take care of myself and son. Im so afraid I won’t heal and be able to be active again so I can get down to a healthy weight.
I gave birth 14 months ago.
It was a traumatic birth, that lasted 48 hours and ended in a c section. I was diagnosed with PPD and then later PTSD. My husband and I had to sell our home and move in with my parents because I was unable to care for myself or son. I sustained numerous injuries to myself, requiring 3 surgeries (one surgery was a combo surgery with 2 procedures). I tore both labrums in my hips and had hip dysplasia so both my hips needed to be partially reconstructed. I had 2 hernias repaired, and additional abdominal surgery to remove endometriosis adhesions that the c section caused to spread (the endo adhered my colon to various things).
I am still needing to use a wheelchair if I leave the house. I cannot walk up a flight of stairs and sleep in a hospital bed. My mom cares for my son full time. Ive had to go on disability. I’m an OT by trade.
My most recent hip surgery took place almost 2 months ago. I have a fairly large diastasis recti which causes significant back pain when I stand. I have a standing tolerance of about 5-8 minutes before it feels like my back and hips are going to give out on me. I can’t tolerate doing any house work and struggle to bath and dress myself. I look like I’m 7 months pregnant, my abdomen is so rounded and distended. My stomach has incredible amounts of adhesions so much so that it restricts me from extending my back. It’s also so sensitive still from my c section (and 2 other abdominal surgeries) that I cannot tolerate clothing against any portion of my stomach below my belly button line. I still have a pubic bone condition called osteitis pubis along with hyertonia of my pelvic floor muscles.
Prior to pregnancy, I worked full time (40+ hours/week) and worked out 6 days/week. I was incredibly active. I used to be a size 4. I haven’t lost a single pound since pregnancy. I don’t know what to do about this body I’m forced to live in now. I don’t even recognize myself. I’m teetering on the verge of being obese because I gained 40+ pounds during pregnancy and I haven’t been able to do anything to lose the weight. I’m also still breastfeeding which doesn’t help me being hungry all the time.
I’ve been in PT for my hips for 5 months and start pelvic floor PT soon. I see a therapist for my PTSD. I am desperate for any advice or anyone who has any experience with what I’ve mentioned. I am desperate to live my life again and I want to be able to take care of myself and son. Im so afraid I won’t heal and be able to be active again so I can get down to a healthy weight.