Her sleep was very manageable - pack n play next to our bed with 1 or 2 nightly wakeups, and then at 6am or so I’d move her to the bed with me for the final few hours. Then we took a month long trip to my in-laws in another state and she could NOT sleep there. We had to fall asleep next to her on a floor mattress and ninja roll away, nursing to sleep every time. It was the only way she’d sleep there.
Well now we’re back home, and she’s used to nursing to sleep and every time she wakes up, wants to comfort suck on my boob to fall back asleep. After a month of sleeping with her like this, she’s no longer sleeping well. She’s waking up hourly and thrashing around. Naps are challenging now too.
I’m at a loss because I wanted to have her in the pack n play next to me for a whole year. But now I’m thinking it might be time for her to sleep in her crib in her nursery. My soul is literally crushed by the thought of sleep training but at this point I don’t know what other choice I have. No matter what I do, she’s not sleeping! I was a reluctant Cosleeper but enjoyed it enough to keep it up - shes just not sleeping well next to me anymore.
I’m not functioning well, I feel horrible. I was hospitalized for 2 months after I had her and was Diagnosed with a rare chronic disease so my sleep is important. I kept up breastfeeding this whole time and that was hard enough, now I’m not sleeping either and I’m just at the end of my rope. I feel like my supply is dipping because of lack of sleep, too.
I don’t want to hurt my baby’s attachment to me by kicking her out of my bed and room but I don’t know how else to get through this. I’m especially scared of sleep training (irrationally maybe?) because I had to leave her for 2 months to go to the Mayo Clinic in another state right after she was born. So I feel really tender towards our bond since I feel like I failed her right after she was born by needing to be hospitalized.
Ugh sorry this got so rambly and incoherent. Any help would be so appreciated.
Edit to add- her sleep has gotten extra bad since we started her on antibiotics a week ago. Could this get better once we’re off the ABX? I know they hurt her tummy.
Well now we’re back home, and she’s used to nursing to sleep and every time she wakes up, wants to comfort suck on my boob to fall back asleep. After a month of sleeping with her like this, she’s no longer sleeping well. She’s waking up hourly and thrashing around. Naps are challenging now too.
I’m at a loss because I wanted to have her in the pack n play next to me for a whole year. But now I’m thinking it might be time for her to sleep in her crib in her nursery. My soul is literally crushed by the thought of sleep training but at this point I don’t know what other choice I have. No matter what I do, she’s not sleeping! I was a reluctant Cosleeper but enjoyed it enough to keep it up - shes just not sleeping well next to me anymore.
I’m not functioning well, I feel horrible. I was hospitalized for 2 months after I had her and was Diagnosed with a rare chronic disease so my sleep is important. I kept up breastfeeding this whole time and that was hard enough, now I’m not sleeping either and I’m just at the end of my rope. I feel like my supply is dipping because of lack of sleep, too.
I don’t want to hurt my baby’s attachment to me by kicking her out of my bed and room but I don’t know how else to get through this. I’m especially scared of sleep training (irrationally maybe?) because I had to leave her for 2 months to go to the Mayo Clinic in another state right after she was born. So I feel really tender towards our bond since I feel like I failed her right after she was born by needing to be hospitalized.
Ugh sorry this got so rambly and incoherent. Any help would be so appreciated.
Edit to add- her sleep has gotten extra bad since we started her on antibiotics a week ago. Could this get better once we’re off the ABX? I know they hurt her tummy.