@ms92help I’m so sorry that you’ve had such a rough start to motherhood. It’s hard enough without all the extra trauma you’ve been through. I had a traumatic birth too, NICU stay, PPD, and PTSD. Therapy and medication do help, stick with what you’re doing there.
Like many people have said above, worry less about what all the social media “experts” are telling you and instead listen to your baby and do what works for your family. There’s no “right” answer. Everything with babies is a phase and you do what you can to get through it until they hit the next phase.
FWIW, around 10 months we switched our son to a floor bed and that helped us. Similar problem - he would wake at night, fall asleep in our arms, then wake up again when we tried to transfer him back to the crib. We fully baby proofed his room, put a firm IKEA mattress on the floor, and when he woke up at night I’d get into his bed and nurse him until he fell back asleep. Bonus was I could sleep with him instead of trying to stay awake in a chair, and could go back to my bed if I wanted once he was asleep again. It wasn’t perfect, there were still lots of nights where we struggled, but we got through it. You will too!
Like many people have said above, worry less about what all the social media “experts” are telling you and instead listen to your baby and do what works for your family. There’s no “right” answer. Everything with babies is a phase and you do what you can to get through it until they hit the next phase.
FWIW, around 10 months we switched our son to a floor bed and that helped us. Similar problem - he would wake at night, fall asleep in our arms, then wake up again when we tried to transfer him back to the crib. We fully baby proofed his room, put a firm IKEA mattress on the floor, and when he woke up at night I’d get into his bed and nurse him until he fell back asleep. Bonus was I could sleep with him instead of trying to stay awake in a chair, and could go back to my bed if I wanted once he was asleep again. It wasn’t perfect, there were still lots of nights where we struggled, but we got through it. You will too!