@ztalbott Any time you want something to be other than the way that it is, it creates unnecessary suffering. However, that suffering is real and sometimes you just have to feel it. it’s not easy to just let go of something that heavy. The only advice I can give is, savor every moment with the two littles you have. I also only have 2 kids, 5 and 2. In my experience, a family with 2 siblings creates a special bond where they are best friends for life. Just treasure them and maybe one day you’ll learn to accept it and let go of the pain. Best of luck.
@ztalbott Honestly, it depends on the families. My husband is the youngest of 3 and he's only a few years apart from his siblings. They're not that close as they live in different countries. There are way more people from 2 kid families than 3 in my area, and some are close, some aren't. Maybe you're subconsciously picking out the the 3+ kid families because deep down, you want that kind of family.