@ztalbott I’m from a family of 5 kids. I can go months without talking to my siblings unless they call. Our family dynamic is pretty bad from a number of issues caused by how our parents raised us.
My husband is the youngest of 2 kids. We talk with his parents all the time and have a very tight relationship. He talks with his sister at least once a week. Their relationship is rocky due to a litany of things, but none of that comes out of the size of their family.
I grew up around families of all sizes. The determining factor in how well the familial relationships have continued is all about family dynamics. Show your kids you love them, hold them both accountable when necessary, make sure their needs and reasonable wants are met, listen to them when they come to you, and you’ll have a great chance of continuing a solid relationship for the rest of your life.
That said, give yourself time and space to mourn not being able to have any more kids. I want a third, and I know I would be distraught if I could not have them. That is absolutely valid, and you should make sure you have time to process this. Make sure you tell your kiddos how much you love them and how you wouldn’t trade them for anything. During this process, you need to make sure they don’t feel like they are not enough.
Good luck, and I hope that you are able to find peace, even without the larger family you wanted. May your kids be calling you in 50 years to wish you happy birthday.