@theadmiral With my first I used to feel this way all the time but I also got pregnant unexpectedly. I even kind of regretted having a baby for a little while, especially after my 1st marriage failed. Now 8yrs later I just had my second, I have an amazing relationship, and this one was very much planned.
I read somewhere on reddit that raising kids is a temporary part of our lives. Every day they get a little bit older and you never truly get that day again. I think now that I'm older, I am more appreciative of this time in my life.
I'm sleep deprived as hell, and I push myself everyday to get all the housework done. I push myself to have dinner on the table every night by 630 and sometimes I manage to make a desert. I push myself to get up at 530am with my 8yo because it's the only one on one time he gets with me since his sister was born, even though I'm freaking exhausted from feeding her all night.
But in the end I know it's all temporary, being a mom is the best thing I've ever done. It's temporary, and one day I'm going to be an empty nester and I'm going to be struggling with missing "my old life."
Having kids is a journey. Everyday is a new milestone, and I know I'm going to miss it when I don't have them to take care of anymore. I always think of that one country song I know "you're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast!"