iwantchristmore28
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My first (and only) baby will be 5 months old this weekend. I returned to work full-time as an associate attorney after 3 months. I enjoy working, although I am at a firm, I do litigation, and my job is high stress. Under no circumstances do I want to be a SAHM (I sort of became Jack Nicholson from The Shining toward the end of maternity leave #IYKYK). I mention this because I don't want to take a step back from my career, so that is not an option.
Baby is in daycare full time. We LOVE the daycare. They have the Procare app, so we get notifications all throughout the day of every diaper change, feeding, photos, etc. He's there from about 8:45-5:15 p.m. The one concern I have is that they don't seem to be pushing ounces throughout the day as much as I would like but our baby is a fussy eater and I know they have 10 babies to take care of. I have mentioned this to them and they said they would work on it.
With that background, I had a mental breakdown last week. We had three blissful weeks of my baby sleeping 7 p.m. until 4 or 5 p.m. when he was about 3 months old. Ever since July 23rd (he was 3.5 months), his sleep is a DISASTER!!!!!!! The best we can get is a six hour stretch but we frequently have 3 hour stretches. He's waking up to eat multiple times a night and eats 4-5 ounces each time. My husband and I alternate nights or if it is a really bad night, the person who is sleeping upstairs in the baby's nursery (there's a daybed next to the crib) can "tap out" around 2-4 a.m. and switch with the other person.
I don't think I've gotten a 6 hour stretch of sleep since my baby was born in April. Most nights I sleep 6 hours total. My main problem is that even if he is sleeping, once he wakes me up, I CANNOT go back to sleep. My mind is racing- I start thinking about work tasks, household tasks, etc. and panicking about how much time I have left to sleep (e.g., he wakes me up at 2, okay I have to be up at 7, so that gives me 4 hours by the time I put him down IF he sleeps that long). Last night, he went to bed at 7, woke up at 9:30 p.m. (ate 5 ounces), 3:30 a.m. (ate 5 ounces and was up from 3:30-5 a.m.), and 7:30 a.m.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to discuss PPD/PPA. I messaged my provider through the portal last week after a particularly rough night where I had to go to work on 3 hours of sleep. I have never been on psychiatric medication but I'm at a loss. It's hard because I know for a fact if I could sleep 7-8 hours a night, I would be happy as a clam. But the sleep deprivation and anxiety around sleep is SO hard. Do I need medication? Will it help if my underlying issue is never sleeping?
I know this is a huge ramble. I'll accept any advice, solidarity, tough love, etc.
Baby is in daycare full time. We LOVE the daycare. They have the Procare app, so we get notifications all throughout the day of every diaper change, feeding, photos, etc. He's there from about 8:45-5:15 p.m. The one concern I have is that they don't seem to be pushing ounces throughout the day as much as I would like but our baby is a fussy eater and I know they have 10 babies to take care of. I have mentioned this to them and they said they would work on it.
With that background, I had a mental breakdown last week. We had three blissful weeks of my baby sleeping 7 p.m. until 4 or 5 p.m. when he was about 3 months old. Ever since July 23rd (he was 3.5 months), his sleep is a DISASTER!!!!!!! The best we can get is a six hour stretch but we frequently have 3 hour stretches. He's waking up to eat multiple times a night and eats 4-5 ounces each time. My husband and I alternate nights or if it is a really bad night, the person who is sleeping upstairs in the baby's nursery (there's a daybed next to the crib) can "tap out" around 2-4 a.m. and switch with the other person.
I don't think I've gotten a 6 hour stretch of sleep since my baby was born in April. Most nights I sleep 6 hours total. My main problem is that even if he is sleeping, once he wakes me up, I CANNOT go back to sleep. My mind is racing- I start thinking about work tasks, household tasks, etc. and panicking about how much time I have left to sleep (e.g., he wakes me up at 2, okay I have to be up at 7, so that gives me 4 hours by the time I put him down IF he sleeps that long). Last night, he went to bed at 7, woke up at 9:30 p.m. (ate 5 ounces), 3:30 a.m. (ate 5 ounces and was up from 3:30-5 a.m.), and 7:30 a.m.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to discuss PPD/PPA. I messaged my provider through the portal last week after a particularly rough night where I had to go to work on 3 hours of sleep. I have never been on psychiatric medication but I'm at a loss. It's hard because I know for a fact if I could sleep 7-8 hours a night, I would be happy as a clam. But the sleep deprivation and anxiety around sleep is SO hard. Do I need medication? Will it help if my underlying issue is never sleeping?
I know this is a huge ramble. I'll accept any advice, solidarity, tough love, etc.