@emilyd I’ve thought about it tbh. He used to be a great partner but in the last year or so he’s just so different. And no, he’s not cheating—he truly does not have the energy. We also both WFH and he never fucking leaves the house by himself, except for play dates with his bestie when he’s in town. Thats why I’m pretty sure it’s depression related but idk how to expedite the healing process to keep me from strangling him. We’re in couples counseling and have been for a while bc it seemed wise given the whole “partnered to bipolar” thing.
And what’s weird is that some days, he’s fantastic. He’s amazing at playing with our kid for hours and hours, he takes care of all the house/contractor/phone-call requiring things, he used to work out every day for his mental health, he goes to therapy and the doctor when I tell him to if it’s clear that something is amiss, takes the kiddo to his weekend activities since otherwise they become “Mom Plays Soccer.” He was an amazing newborn dad. Took pride in handling all the poopy diapers and blowouts, did a deep dive into cloth diaper laundering, he took a few classes on infant care when I was pregnant. He used to get up every day with our kid when he was little, back when I was breastfeeding all night.
So like
what the actual fuck. And the GUILT. Jesus Christ the guilt that pours off of him is
palpable and yet any changes take foooorrrreeeevvvveeerrrr