@nice19 Yes it did. My numbers were beautiful with my blighted ovum which is why it came at such a shock. I had zero symptoms that anything was wrong, not even a little bit of spotting or cramping or anything. When I asked my doctor what my odds were of having another one she told me that she has never seen a woman have two back to back and has only seen a few woman have more than one at all so that helped a little.
Feeling a sense of doom about this pregnancy
@nice19 I’m 8w3 after the recent loss of a 5w sac at 7w4d. I’ve been in a paralyzed state of fear since finding out I was pregnant again. Took tests until 23dpo and never got a hpt that stole all dye from the control like I did in my 2 healthy pregnancies. Symptom spotting every day. Pink discharge and a bit of pink spotting. Literally I’ve been a basket case. Convinced the other shoe would drop at any moment.
I had an ultrasound yesterday at 8w2d and baby is measuring perfectly on track with a heart rate of 177.
Like one of the original comments said, fear and intuition are not the same thing!
I had an ultrasound yesterday at 8w2d and baby is measuring perfectly on track with a heart rate of 177.
Like one of the original comments said, fear and intuition are not the same thing!
@nice19 I was in your same shoes 15+ weeks ago, and I made an almost identical post as well at 4w4d. I was just feeling this insane anxiety and sense of doom and gloom about my pregnancy because of our fertility issues and especially because of my lack of symptoms. I was on progesterone and petrified of an MMC, so much so I paid out of pocket for extra ultrasounds every other week in the first tri. Well I’m now almost 21 weeks pregnant and everything is going just fine so far. Ive had almost no symptoms other than mild breast tenderness and headaches. No nausea, no vomiting, no food aversions or cravings, no obvious skin changes, not feeling much discomfort at all. I can easily forget I’m pregnant most days and I don’t get headaches nearly at all anymore either. I say all this to say, you are far more likely to have everything turn out okay than not.
livingtheghost
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@nice19 Advice above has been great. I just want you to know that at 4w5d I’m exactly as anxious as you are. The past few days I haven’t felt as nauseous as I have been and not as bloated and felt a sense of dread when I wake up. I convinced myself it must be bc my HCG is dropping. But as the day went on I started feeling it again but then I was like, is anxiety causing my nausea or the pregnancy? I also haven’t had any breast tenderness whatsoever like most people. I keep peeing on Pregmate sticks and the lines haven’t gotten much darker so then I panic again. I try to mentally prepare myself in my head at my 8 week @spiritualtranscendence of us walking in excited and them telling us there’s no heartbeat. Every time I feel wet in my underwear I prepare to see blood. It’s awful. But I’m letting these thoughts affect me! I read a comment the other day that said, worrying the entire time won’t save you from the grief if you do miscarry. But it does rob you of the joy of being pregnant. I know it’s hard but try to just sit in silence for 10-15 minutes in the morning and focus on your breathing. That’s helped me a little.
@livingtheghost Thank you for this. I do all the same things as you! I wake up each morning and just want to feel some kind of symptom to assure me my body knows it’s pregnant! It’s so frustrating sometimes. I wish you a smooth pregnancy, and a healthy baby.
@nice19 For what it’s worth, I’m quite certain that prednisone masks many symptoms of pregnancy as well. In fact, it’s often given to women with HG as a last resort to help with excessive vomiting. I’m also on it and clinging to that fact to keep me from spiraling at 5w3d with no real signs of morning sickness 
@nice19 If you’re in the USA, you can go online and order more HCg betas and progesterone levels yourself. Of your progesterone comes back a little low, maybe you increase your dose, after speaking with your doctor. Also, you can go to a crisis pregnancy center or planned parenthood and possibly get an ultrasound. These might help you be more at ease. All the best to you.
@kcrystina Thanks. I called my OB and got scheduled for another round of HCG betas this week. We’ll see how it goes. Of course I’m extremely nervous.
@nice19 Check out the miscarriage rate calculator - it has helped ease my mind a bit but only short term to be honest because I’ll be like „oh but the data is flawed“ or „I could be part of the 5%“ and that is anxiety and not intuition as has been mentioned on this thread before. Probably the best thing you can do is get off the internet and.stop.googling.!!! My scan is also April 2 lol and I’m terrified. And if it’s fine I’ll find something else to worry about it never ends! My dad said to me stay off the internet and enjoy that you’re pregnant today! You’ll regret worrying the entire first trimester when instead you could have been happy about the pregnancy and damn that hit hard… of course loss is a terrifying possibility but even IF it ended in that I would want to have been happy leading up to it - I guess I would be just as sad… it’s not like you’re “preparing” for anything by worrying about it, you’re just kind of stressed and sad the whole time? In German there’s a saying “hope for the best and prepare for the worst” - why not hope for the best??? And be happy? All the best to you 
workgeek50
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@nice19 I felt anxiety about my healthy pregnancies when there was no evidence that something was wrong. I felt the doom about my miscarriage when the signs began pointing to it. As others have said, TODAY you are pregnant. Enjoy it today. If there is no bleeding or cramping and your dr isn’t concerned, then move forward with faith that all is well. Anxiety is real so don’t discount it, but acknowledge it as such and know that just because you feel something is wrong, doesn’t mean there is, unless there are other signs
@nice19 I want to make you feel more encouraged, but I’ll tell you that it’s all hard. I waited so long to see that first positive hpt. I got it, and then I saw the lines progress and thought “okay now I’ll feel better”. Then a positive beta, then it doubled. “Okay now I’ll feel better” I will tell you there was a little leap where I actually did feel slightly reassured and it’s the part that’s coming up for you next, when I was able to see that there was one intrauterine pregnancy with a heartbeat. I too was riddled with anxiety over ectopic/MMC because in the beginning you just don’t know, you’re truly in the dark “pregnant” but unsure of everything. I’m 10 weeks now and everything has been looking great, & yet that still doesn’t 100% reassure me because as an infertility patient, I will never fully trust my body. I will tell you that seeing a therapist who has children thanks to IVF has been wildly helpful to me! I wish you nothing but the best going into your first ultrasound!
samaritanrevival
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@nice19 WOW! I just searched “feeling a sense of doom in early pregnancy” and this popped up. Im 5w and have my first ultrasound April 4th!
Also on progesterone bc of recurrent losses and hcg is rising but started off low from late implantation. Minimal symptoms as well. Ill add you to my prayers, Im sorry you’re also feeling scared about this pregnancy, but feels good to know its not just me.
I just keep having to remind myself that if anything happens, it’s out of my control. Trying to keep myself from stressing bc that wouldnt help in anyway. We got this!! Please update after you have your Ultrasound!
Also on progesterone bc of recurrent losses and hcg is rising but started off low from late implantation. Minimal symptoms as well. Ill add you to my prayers, Im sorry you’re also feeling scared about this pregnancy, but feels good to know its not just me.
I just keep having to remind myself that if anything happens, it’s out of my control. Trying to keep myself from stressing bc that wouldnt help in anyway. We got this!! Please update after you have your Ultrasound!
@samaritanrevival Hey! I had my ultrasound, and baby was measuring a few days behind, but had a pretty good heart rate of 151. I know that should reassure me, but I’m definitely still very nervous since my first MMC stopped growing at this same time during that pregnancy. I just want this little one to grow, grow, grow. My next US isn’t until 4/23. Seems like forever away. Best of luck to you at your US tomorrow! Let me know how it goes!