Sunday we (me 35F, husband 42M, daughter 3F) went to the an indoor playground. Husband had an interaction with a little boy who was probably 12-15 months old. After the little boy walked away, husband turned to me and said “Maybe we should have another one.”
Since that moment I cannot stop thinking about it. I feel like it opened up something inside me.
I feel like this whole time I’ve been sticking to the OAD storyline because it is what husband wants. Hearing there’s a possibility he wants two is exciting to me!
Here are my reasons (some shitty) for wanting a second, but definitely done after that
Since that moment I cannot stop thinking about it. I feel like it opened up something inside me.
I feel like this whole time I’ve been sticking to the OAD storyline because it is what husband wants. Hearing there’s a possibility he wants two is exciting to me!
Here are my reasons (some shitty) for wanting a second, but definitely done after that
- Having a whole other kid to love. Daughter truly is a joy, even when she’s deep in the 3’s.
- Balancing out the family. I have heard the term “Team Parents” and “Team Kids” and that appeals to me. I am worried things are too lopsided with just daughter
- Potential to be a healing pregnancy and newborn experience with baby aspirin prophylaxis. Yes I realize this is not a reason on its own but it could happen. Things could also be same or worse. This falls in the category of shitty reasons.
- Potential to be a healing sibling experience for husband. His whole childhood and even adult life is colored by his relationship with his (shitty) brother. Seeing a positive sibling relationship could be transformative for him. Or it could be neutral or negative, which is why this is a shitty reason
- Give daughter more family to grow up with. As much as husband wishes for it, I have serious doubts that my parents will ever move here (from LCOL East Coast to MCOL Midwest), due to financials. It would make me feel like we are a “full family” here and not needing to lean on family of origin for fulfillment.
- Experience raising a sibling duo. Getting to see them interact. Hopefully we can cultivate a positive relationship.
- Preeclampsia. Full stop. It was a traumatic experience, especially daughter being on ventilators in the NICU (she was born at 34+0 with some unexplained respiratory issues that have since resolved). It might not happen again, but it might.
- Husband and I both have mental health issues (me, cyclothymia and him, anxiety… both on meds). Both things that we can pass down and complicate and add stress to daily living
- I’m pretty sure one is a lot easier than two. See point above about stress.
- Traveling in plane is much easier with one for visits home
- Financial implications of two. More daycare, more college to save for
- Another newborn stage. Baby snuggles are great and all, but I have been high sleep needs lately and not functioning well while tired
- The challenge of the newborn stage while raising an older child
- Since we were soooo certain of one and done ever since daughter was a baby, we got rid of all the baby gear. Would need to buy it allll again (though we got much secondhand the first time around)